Today was a very happy day for some of our friends – Miss Haley Joe was born today and we went to see her after work. She weighed 7lbs 6oz and was 20” long. This picture was taken only a few hours after she was born and she is just beautiful! Proud parents Jonah and Kim and Big Sister Hannah are doing great!
Today I decided that from now on I want to give the doctor’s office Jason’s cell phone number to call with updates instead of mine so he can break it to me if needed. I got an unexpected call from the doctor’s office while I was at work today. She was calling with the chromosome test results of the babies. She said that both of them were normal with no chromosome abnormalities. Well that wasn’t the news we were hoping for because she said now we have to test me to see if my body is doing something that caused the loss. Then she asked if I wanted to know what they were and immediately I said yeah b/c of course you want to know. But when she said “it was 2 little boys” I got off the phone as quickly as I could and I lost it. I wanted to know and I’m glad I found out but knowing that they were boys made it that much more personal. Everything that I was suppose to get to share with them immediately started running through my head, from practicing playing ball with them to teaching them how to hunt and fish. It was in that moment that I realized even more what I had missed out on. And what made it worse was knowing that they were ok so there was a good chance that it was me – my body that caused me to lose them. I felt very guilty. Jason reassured me that God was in control and that it wasn’t anything that I did.
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